Stressed out

I feel like Im so stressed out. During Sundays I keep on dreaming the office where Im taking all those fucking calls from the super bobos americans. I really should be looking for another job but Mico's advise keeps playing on my mind. Im so confused. I remember Sir Rick's question to me during the interview asking me how long am I planning to stay... I told him as long as Im happy..am I happy now? NO!!! I dont know whats wrong... is it me,is it the product that Im supporting that really SUCKS...or those americans that Im trying to help? Whatever. I need a getway...

Ouran High School Host Club

Monday, and I havent sleep yet. Our house is under construction. Again and again. I remember last year when I have to sleep on cinema with my sister coz our house is being painted. And now another so called major project is being done in our house. I woke up 8am and upto now its Tuesday 3:28 in the morning Im still wide awake. My head is aching like I have a migrane. Anyway Im hooked on this Host Club anime. The DVD that I have only have 20 eps on. But when I searched the net they said that it has 26 ep in total. Anyway try to watch it on youtube during saturday and sunday at a cafe. im going to sanctuario de san jose today to pay respect to my dad's classmate in high school.

My miserable Friday

This Friday Im fully convinced that Im going to resign on my current job. After one year on this company Im saying goodbye na. I feel that my brain keeps on getting smaller. Like a bird brain. I hate the feeling of being stupid. You're talking with stupid people for about 8 hours for 5 days a week so there will be a tendency that you become stupid. I feel like a racist din sometimes kasi badtrip na ako sa mga kano. Im hands down sa mga tao na tumatagal sa ganitong klase ng job. Im regretting that I made a mistake for taking this as my first job. Sana I accept na lang yung Accenture offer kahit na nasa training ako ng Trend. Badtrip when I was on fifth year I know that Im going to Accenture coz they offered me a job when I was student, then Trend Micro come out of nowhere. A one day big offer na d ko napag isipan. Anyway May is coming. Salvation is coming.

Free flowing thoughts

I was absent yesterday due to problems. And while I was at home I was watching House. It makes me think again of my dead relatives. I wonder if Dr. House is the attending doctor of my dead relatives would they still be alive? There are so many patient on the hospital and i keep on thinking where they get all the money for the operations? I think here in the Philippines most of the people died because they have no money to pay the operation and for the medications. Are all the people in the States insured? Or they just have that free clinic? Like the one that bailey trying to build at the Grey's Anatomy. Speaking of Grey's Anatomy, I was so moved on the scene where George's father died. I rememeber my grandpa. Though my grandpa suffered a stroke and he's on comma for 2 yrs. we'd let the life support to support him until the end. George said that he's experiencing pain so they have to let go. I wonder if my grandpa feel those pain for those 2 years. I think is a pain on our part too. We've sacrified a lot in order to have those life suppor things. How many millions pesos we've spent for those years and the tragedy of the family. The discord, chaos, etc.  Watching those series makes me think of life and death. How life goes. Death is so humbling. No matter how rich and powerful you are at the end you'll end up 6 feet under.