Split screen sadness

Eversince I got back from my trip, I feel an infinite sadness. Im withdrawn from people. I dont mingle much and I have no freakin idea why. Im kinda ok when Im at work since Im always busy there but after work, it all settles in...Im alone...again.

I would always catch myself talking to myself or just having lots of random thoughts. Maybe Im mental...ah I don't know. All I know is, Im sad or depressed or whatever blue you can call it.

And because of this, Im feeling bolder to move out of the provice and go to Toronto to ate. She kinda knows what my situation is and she is more than willing to have me there. Job wise, I know myself and capabilities and I have Will who still have a job offer for me. But last time we talked he's pushing me to go to Calgary since according to him, there are more better job opportunities for me in Calgary and he have contacts there so I can easily find a job. He told me that living in Toronto is like a rat life. I told him that I've been living my life in Manila and its much worst than Toronto. He was laughing his ass the whole time and he told me that I did have a valid point. Anyway yeah most of the time Im thinking of moving out but there are also reasons that I need to stay. I need to stay here so I can petition my family to go here. And besides I really love my office mates. They are my family. Other than that I dont know.

Maybe Im sad because when I went to Manila, Im with my family and friends and Im happy everyday especially when I had my Asian trip. Then coming back here, I realized that Im far away from them. Im back on my routine of work-home-sleep. Its not like what I had a couple of weeks ago that on a day I got to do a lot of things like waking up with a good breakfast, going to church, meeting up with friends, going to the mall, watch a movie, go to the beach and such. I know I can do it here but its so damn hard with the weather and commuting. This too shall pass...maybe by spring I'll be better after all I managed to live here for 2 years, and I survived.

I totally agree with this!

The Philipine Fighting Pride

He's back! He won finally! But watching Manny Pacquiao match against Rios made me realize that he's not the same fighter anymore. His punches are not powerful enough to make a knock out to his opponent. Speed is still there but not the same when he was on his prime. Well considering Pacman is on his early 30s now, I think its quite acceptable. They way he speak after match made him more human. Accepting that the opponent did hurt him. Saying its one of the toughest match he had. Humble that's what I can say. Even the commentators said that Manny is a very changed man. Probably because of religion. Whatever changed, I know for sure Manny Pacquiao is such a hero for all the Pilipino people. He unites us. Everytime he's fighting all of us are watching him. Zero crime for the whole Philippine island. Even churches are empty when he's fighting but the priest know that all of us are praying for Manny to win. Anyway Im really happy that he won and a consideration to Rios...he gets to punch a Philippine congressman!

the ever religious man

WIN!

the interview

an epal Philippine government official in the background

oh la la! my David Beckham is in the house!

Red

Sometimes I wish I can just flash a red card to people so they can stop making my life miserable. If only it's that easy...

A repost that you should read and take action to...

Im just reposting this from TUMBLR.

There has been a terrible lack of posts recognizing the Philippine Typhoon and that’s why I’m making this post. The Philippines just had the WORST typhoon in history called, Haiyan. Now if you have no idea about the severity, the wind speeds of this typhoon was about 250 mph, which is THREE AND A HALF TIMES THE SPEED OF THE WINDS OF HURRICANE KATRINA. imagine the damage Katrina did to the US, a developed country. The Philippines is a Third world country. Most of the people in this country live in SHACKS MADE OUT OF TRASH. It is estimated that about 10,000 PEOPLE DIED. Dead bodies literally litter the streets and are STUCK IN TREES. IF YOU GIVE ANY SHITS TODAY ABOUT FELLOW HUMANITY YOU BETTER REBLOG THIS. IM NOT ONLY DOING THIS BECAUSE MY FAMILY IS FILIPINO BUT BECAUSE THIS STORM WAS THE WORST IN HISTORY. GOD BLESS THE SOULS LOST THERE. My parents were seriously almost on the verge of tears and almost screaming. We didn’t lose anybody in our family, but it has got to hurt to know that the place you came from is IN SHAMBLES. Pls spread this if you care

I have a lot of Filipino friends and people I cherish a lot! If you could donate to the cause that would be great!

PLEASE HELP! Here are some links to donate: 

HOW THE INTERNATIONAL COMMUNITY CAN HELP

• donations via the Philippine Red Cross (including PayPal)
• donations via Habitat for Humanity
• donations via ANCOP Foundation USA
• eta: donations via UNICEF Philippines
• eta2: donations via CARE Australia
• eta2: donations via Caritas Internationalis 
• eta2: donations via GMA Network (credit card, cash, check)
• eta2: donations via World Vision
• eta2: donations via AmeriCares
• eta2: donations via Samaritan’s Purse (Canada)
• eta2: donations via Canadian Red Cross (or you can text REDCROSS or ROUGE to 30333 to donate $5)

FOR THOSE IN THE PHILIPPINES

• text donations via Globe
• Red Cross and DSWD relief operations (infographic)
• list of ongoing relief operations via Rappler
• donations via ABS-CBN News
• eta: relief operations via University of the Philippines
• eta: relief operations via the Department of Education
• eta: pick-up locations for donations via Air 21

Super Typhoon Haiyan

So just after a magnitude 7 hit the Philippines another disaster is coming. News said that its the strongest typhoon of the year so far. Super Typhoon Haiyan is the name and local name is Yolanda. Category 5 hurricane. God knows Im really nervous again for my family and friends. Im so stressed out. My fellow people are just trying to rebuilt their lives from the earthquake and now this?! Prayer is a very powerful thing so please pray for Philippines and the safety of every people there.

 

Typhoon Haiyan (photo taken from NatGeo website)

Like seriously?!!!!

If you can do a thing all by yourself, will you be asking someone to do it for you?! Like seriously I like helping people because I know they need my help but I hate it when you ask me of a thing that I know you can do it very well. Im not your slave!!!!!!!!!!!!!